Fallen Angel's Journal

4:50pm: Well, DAMN it's been a long time
Well here I am again after almost a month and a half of no updates, and you know the sad thing.

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NOTHING HAS CHANGED! I'm still stuck at home, still working at radioshack (abliet, I'm making a fortune doing it, but still!). I can't wait for school to resume. I want to see Cat without knowing she has to leave again in two days. I'd like to see the rest of my friends so I can sit around and joke with them instead of sitting here...on my ass, all day long.

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Aside from that, there truly is not much going on here. No huge updates in my life...guess summer is just not my season, eh?

4:32pm: Well, DAMN it's been a long time
Well here I am again after almost a month and a half of no updates, and you know the sad thing.



NOTHING HAS CHANGED! I'm still stuck at home, still working at radioshack (abliet, I'm making a fortune doing it, but still!). I can't wait for school to resume. I want to see Cat without knowing she has to leave again in two days. I'd like to see the rest of my friends so I can sit around and joke with them instead of sitting here...on my ass, all day long.



Aside from that, there truly is not much going on here. No huge updates in my life...guess summer is just not my season, eh?

Current Mood: irritated

9:38pm: Grrrrr....headaches.
My head is pounding like only a certain kind of headache can cause. It's back to the drawing board for cures to the headaches, or trying to find someone who can amputate my head for me....good day in general, headache sucks, but that's life. Couple more days til Em comes to visit, and then a few days after that Cat comes to visit! YAY!

4:45pm: Grrrrr....irritation.
You know, every once in a while you are having a perfectly good day and something comes along to irritate the living shit out of you. Today, it one of those days. Apparently, WAY back at the beginning of the semester when I dropped my Geography course, something got messed up, because I never dropped it, which means, I never attended, never did any work, and never took any tests...and therefore FAILED it...and killed my goddamned GPA. ::::raises a toast::::: here's to all those people in the registrar's office. Stupid Bastards.

Aside from that, I finally got a decent night's sleep, but I miss Cat...She's going ot come and visit soon, in a week or two, but that doesn't make me miss her any less...

8:05pm: One more, just for fun

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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7:44pm: Yet another quiz....strangely drawn to them these days

Strategic Gamer


(results contain pictures) What type of GAMER are you?
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7:28pm: End Of The Semester Blues
What a strange paradox...I'm glad to be done, and yet I can't wait for school to start up again. Couple of reasons really...one, I'm looking forward to my classes next semester and I will also (hopefully) have an opinion column in the pipe dream.

Aside from that, I miss Cat... She's gone home for the summer, and though she'll be able to come and visit that doesn't change the fact that she's not here... I got to spend most of last week with her and was very happy about that, but now that she's gone, I'm a bit on the gloomy side. All is well though. That's it for the update, talk to you all later.

4:20pm: Hmmm...quizzes
Quizzes are fun...although I must question some of the accuracy, lol. Which X-Men character am I?
You are Wolverine!

A loner by nature, you feel uncomfortable when
around those you don't know and even those you
do. You are awkward when it comes to
relationships, but fiercely loyal to those you
love.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
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What do you guys think? Agree...disagree? Thoughts, comments, questions, bedknobs, broomesticks, and all other assorted paraphenalia?

4:05pm: Alright....it's been a while
Well now...things have gotten rather hectic. Finals, Papers, a wonderful girlfriend. You know...all the good things in life. Mostly, I've just been hanging on...trying to get everything in order for the end of the semester...finally registered for the things I needed next semester. It's looking like a whole lot of writing for me next semester.

ENG478N - Native American Folklore
ENG330C - Chaucer
ENG300S - Science Fiction
CW450B - Creative Writing Advanced Workshop
HPHS121 - Swimming For Fitness

So let's see....12 hours a day will be spent in front of a computer (thank god for laptops) and the rest of it will be spent in a pool? Does that sound about right? Ahh well...things are looking up. Everything between Cat and I is going well, and everything else in my life seems to be finally falling into place. I'm employed again...I'm back into sales (computer sales too I might add). Nope, I can't complain one little bit.

As I said before, the end of one chapter, and the beginning of another. Hopefully this one ends on a happier note, yes?

Hey, everyone. I hope all of you have a fantastic summer, and come back next semester with a nice tan and some good stories.

4:02pm: It's been a while
Well, it's been a while since I last posted anything, and it's not because nothing has been going on. It's been a hectic week, trying to sort out how everything is going to work out in the end of the semester. First off, having a girlfriend who is going to be going home for two months, leaves me with a bit of a problem, (especially considering that I've become rather accustomed to seeing her each day). I've finally declared my major (or am in the process of doing so) and it looks like it's going to be english. No surprise there, eh folks? Anyways, the majority of what has been getting school stuff settled out. On that note, if you'll excuse me, I need to go and register for courses. Take it easy folks...

1:35pm: Good Times
It's been a good couple of days. I'm in a far better mood than I have been recently. It seems that the better weather, and returning to school have made things much better. Spent most of thursday hanging out in the dining hall, lounging around and giving Cat a back rub. I'm not when it dawned on me, but I really like her. So, I was talking to her later that night online and she agreed to come and have a cup of coffee with me yesterday.

Yesterday went inclredibly well too. The day was warm and sunny and after my 940 beowulf class, things started getting even better. We spent most of the day playing frisbee, or throwing around the football. It made for good company, and good times. Later on in the afternoon I went to have coffee with Cat, and we spent the time walking around the nature preserve and chit chatting. We have a surprising amount in common it seems. She loves to cook, and, strangely, her favorite food to cook is the same as mine. She's a gamer, and loves horses, among various other things.

Anyways, things went very well, and after a wonderful kiss goodbye, she agreed to come and have dinner with me on Sunday. Things are going well indeed, and hopefully my good luck holds out.

Today is rainy, and I am at home with the dogs for the day, but tonight is last session of the playtest for D&D 3.5. Last night's session went well, and i'm hoping tonight's will too. I'll probably be around all day, so if anyone reads this and wants to give me a call, please, do so.

11:13pm: Another day, now the damned computers busted
They say bad things happen in threes, well hopefully it's over and done with now. The Ex calling, the loss of ones job, and the computer needing to have it's power cord replaced. Hopefully at this point, it's all said and done for now.

In other news, in the world of Corey, life goes on. I am so ridiculously glad to be back in school that it's not even remotely funny. Classes are a relief (not that I really went to any of them today...but oh well) and things are proceeding as normal.

Tomorrow will be a pretty interesting day. I'm stuck heading to school WAY too early, I'll be there before half the damned buildings are even open. But, eh, that's life, right? Beowulf tomorrow, meeting with Group at 1 oclock. After that...life goes on... hoping to have a chance to hang with Milissa for a little while at least. She and her boyfriend got into another fight today, she seemed pretty upset, but she admits that I am definetly in line if they can't sort things out.
I'm not sure if I am hoping for that or not, because as her friend, I want things to work out for her, and her not to be upset, but as a potential suitor...I'm hoping things don't work out so well. Is that wrong? I don't think so, I've been entirely honest with her, told her what I think and where I stand on things, so as far as I'm concerned it's all fair.

Any thoughts? Anyone? Maybe I'm just digging a grave here, who knows. Oh well, at least it's one with a comfortable lining.

1:39am: Damn
Easter. Yeah.

Things weren't too bad, spent the day lounging around and chit chatting with various people. Found out that Milissa has a boyfriend whom she fights with a great deal, who lives about two hours from here as well. We talked about it for a time and she's not sure if she's going to remain in the area or not, but she likes me and would like to (at the very least) be friends, so we shall see how things go. Who knows, right?

In other news, life goes on. I'm working on stuff for my campaign tomorrow night. Curious if certain people are going to show up, (those of you reading this probably know who you are)So get in touch with me.

And so ends another day

11:57pm: From Bad, To Good, To Worse
Well, let's see. Let's some up the days of this last week, shall we?

Monday - ok
Tuesday - Great (nice warm weather, frisbee, etc)
Wednesday - Bad (ex called)
Thursday - Worse (ex called back)
Friday - Great (had a nice time working with Milissa, and hanging out with her)
Saturday - Fucking Horrible (got fired from my job, got into a fight at home, not much pleasantness)

Any questions?

Of course, the kicked of all of this is the piddly shit that I got fired for (pardon my language please, I've had a rough day). One piece of paper, that's really what it amounts to. A slip of paper was missing out of my register bag. It wound up shorting me 12.91 cents, and that was that. The end of my employment. Isn't that sad? It's to a point where I actually laughed when my boss told me.

Other than that, and getting into a horrific fight here at home, my days was just peachy. Thanks for asking.

2:06am: Good Day
Today was a good day, I'm glad to say. I went and had coffee with a lovely women in my beowulf course, and worked on our project some. She and I spent most of last night chatting and getting to know each other, and from the sound of things (and the looks of things) there is potential for a possible future in dates. Not necessarily looking for a relationship, but I guess we'll just have to see where it goes.

The playtest went well, I just got home a few minutes ago and I'm exhausted, I need sleep at this point. It's strange to have someone other than normal on my mind. An odd sensation indeed. Not used to it anymore, but I can't really say it's unpleasant. Maybe this is just me growing up? Maybe it's just me coming to terms with certain aspects of my life? I couldn't say, but I'm feeling rather introspective this evening.

Kelly's getting married offers a conclusion to one chapter of my life, one section of it that will finally be over and done with. In one sense, I feel a sense of loss. For those of you that know me well enough, or have been informed recently of events, then you'll understand that. In the same moment however, there is a sense of freedom...no longer a wondering, nagging feeling that lays in the back of my skull in all hours. It's no long my job to worry, and yet a part of me still wants to. I'll never be able to explain it, but at least, now, I can leave it all behind me and finally move completely on with my life.

Having closed the boook on one chapter of my life, I am rather anxious to know what this next chapter holds in store for me. Relationships tended not to work for me in the past, but I hope that will change. I'm intent on turning over several new leaves in the path. I'm tired of fighting with people at home, so I'm intent on making it better. I'm tired of relationships going badly for me, so I intend on working harder to make things work. I'm tired of settling for things in my life when I know that I can do infinitely better. No more will I simply try for the things I know I can get...it's time for a few of my old traits to come back in full force.

Tonight, I truly am the Fallen Angel. My wings lay broken and shattered beneath me, nothing more than a mess of feathers, bone, and sinew. My body is nothing more than a mass of bruises and broken bones. But in this form lies my salvation for from it I can rebuild.

My skin hardens and my wings reform, not the same as they used to be, but I can still fly.

I may have Fallen, but the skies are not off limits to me.

10:25pm: ...
What a strange day. The events of the day are lost on me entirely with the notable exception of a phone call that I recieved while I was at work. Actually, to be technical, the call was at home, I just wasn't here to get it.

The phone call was from my ex-girlfriend, Kelly. Those of you who have been around me long enough understand why this is something of a shock, given that things have been rather rocky between her and I. Yet I find myself strangely excited to talk to her again, and at the sam time deathly afraid of the time when she calls back. I'm about as confused as could be at this point, and to make things worse, the whole house is silent, making me incredibly paranoid.

To top it off, around midnite last nigth the phone rang, and it was my older brother's roommates, calling to hit on me and beg me to come visit. This might not seem strange to some of you, but I've never met one of these women, much less all four. And I think I have a date with three of them...i'm really not quite sure. It's all very, very odd.


Someone help me...someone help me please?

11:46am: Another Game
Last nights game session went very well, I thought. Everyone seemed to be working together and cooperating, even the naked dwarf. There are some things that I am going to have to address though, like the amount of XP that they are getting and why it is lower than they expected. Maybe one or two other things, but that's all for next week. In the meantime, they've come to the end of this section of their adventure, so things are shaping up pretty well.

Today proves to be a long day, classes until 730, then I'll finally get to come home and relax, and tomorrow I get to work again (yeah.) Things are looking up, so hopefully the day will go well.

2:10pm: Good Days and Nights
Well, my life has officially gotten somewhat cooler in the last few days. Things are going much better, although I'm almost certain that I failed my Anthro exam, everything else seems to be shaping up quite nicely.

I'm lucky enough to be playtesting the newest edition of D&D, and let me tell you, there is some cool shit there folks. I can't say anything more than that, do to a non-disclosure agreement, but I urge all of you to buy the book when they come out this June.

Other than that, life goes on. I'm still single, and loving it. I think relationships aren't going to be a great idea for me, I love chasing way too much, and flirting is one of my favorite past times. The other part would be finding a woman suited to me. There are only two women I would actually date at this point, and that's Amy, and Amanda. They are the only two women who I think I could have a successful relationship with.

Pursuits is another thing entirely though. There are plenty of women out there who are flirty, intelligent, and just plain fun to be around, and while I'm not looking to date any of them...I guess anything could happen,right?

Ahh, shit, it's time to get myself ready for work. Have to eat, take the top off the jeep, (Yeah! it's finally warm) as well as getting dressed and actually going, so I'll catch up with everyone later. Enjoy your day, enjoy your night, and feel free to give me a call if you get bored.

1:31pm: Another day...
Well, another day has passed. Nothing too much going on at this point, but life sure does throw some strange curves our way. It seems as if an ex of mine (Amy) is still interested in possibly getting back together again. Not sure how that's going to go, but one way or another it can't be too bad. I'm really not looking forward to getting up early tomorrow to go to work...530 am....ew...oh well...such is life.

11:14am: The morning of the exam
Well, I'm off to go and take the exam about which I was ranting last evening. I'm pretty much assuming that me and everyone else that takes it (all 450 of us) are doomed. So wish me luck, I'm sure that I'll need it.

As for everything else, the day seems to have started off well, so hopefully the exam will simply bring it down a notch. Actually, let me rephrase that, hopefuly I'm wrong about the exam and I'll ace it. (Hey, a guy can hope, can't he?)

12:01am: A Rant, on everything from TA's to Antrho exams
Not much to say really, except that at this point I am so incredibly tired of my Anthro essay that I don't particularly care if I fail at this point in time. The TA who posted the essay question to the website was obviously not a very good english student. A graduate student who repeatedly mispelled the word Discussion? We had a few variations in a one paragraph question, we found disscussion, and dicussion, along with numerous other errors. I've been referring to the question as gramatically unsound, but it's a long story. Take a look if you want to.
http://bingweb.binghamton.edu/%7Eanth125/exam2-essay.html

Don't worry if you don't understand what the terms it's talking about mean, I'm an anthro major and neither do I. (this is a good sign for those of us taking the exam tomorrow)Anyways, I'm going to do horribly on it, but at this point, as mentioned, I don't particularly care. So, I bid you all a fond farewell and goodnight...err morning at this point